My name is Rena, I am interested in Natural awareness training. I repeat it again and again, but I’m not sure if I actually reach this type of awareness. How does it feel when the mini me is no longer there?
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Hi Rena. Welcome, and great question.
One thing I often notice is that people imagine natural awareness as a state they need to arrive at. When that’s the frame, it can create a lot of self-checking: “Am I there yet?” That checking can feel like the “mini me,” but it’s really just a habit of the mind doing what it’s learned to do.
For most people, the sense of self doesn’t disappear. It becomes quieter and less central. Thoughts still come up. A sense of “me” may still appear. The difference is that these experiences are no longer organizing everything. They don’t need to be fixed, followed, or pushed away.
If nothing dramatic is happening, that doesn’t mean you’re missing it. Often, natural awareness feels ordinary and subtle. One thing to notice as a sign of progress is when effort drops on its own, and you’re able to just “be”, without a lot of mental noise.
When the “mini me” isn’t running things, it doesn’t feel empty or special. Experience still has texture. Thoughts still happen. Decisions still get made. What changes is how sticky everything feels. A thought comes up and doesn’t immediately turn into a position. An emotion moves through without needing to be explained. There’s less internal commentary following each moment around.
It feels simpler and more direct. Not especially calm or spaced out, just less crowded. Things happen, and there’s no extra layer asking what it means or what it says about you. That’s the closest I can get to describing it.